I had a long hiatus of almost 4 years...
I guess 3 out of those 4 years I was busy...
Busy with SettlingBackinPerth/Working/GettingMarried/BeingaWife/Studying@BibleCollege/Travelling/Hostingfriends&family etc.
There was also a long period of time because no one visits the blog anymore and everyone just post things on FB, so I'll usually leave my thoughts/reflections and post them as status update on FB...
When I look back at some memories of the day on FB, it sometimes shock me that Wow! Did I really write that? Did those words come from me? I wonder what triggered it, or who or what has inspired me to write so beautifully...
- I believe it must be God
Many things happen just within a day...
In fact over the course of last few days, many things occurred...
Many major events in my journey over the past year of having graduated from Harvest Bible College occurred...
However, it's just not possible to find time to digest, reflect, and to blog or journal about it...
Well, I suppose many a times I wanted to post on FB, but due to the uncertainty of it all I'd rather keep it private as of now...
It's a nice outlet to be able to type here, keep a memory of my thoughts, journal about my journey here, and knowing that I'm in a private safe haven...
It has been challenging, annoying, frustrating.. but that's because we care...
we care so much that it hurts so badly...
we care so much that we are angry that things are just happening in vicious cycle and there's nothing we can do to make it better...
we talk to people about it, we let the leadership know the issues we are facing...
but I wonder when things will change, when will it turn around for good?
Maybe just maybe, this indeed is an open door... a breakthrough...
A whole new world for me to just soak in amazement of God and how He is able to manoeuvre situation and circumstances to make all things work for the good of those who love Him...
I am pretty settled...
I am pretty certain...
But the heartaches, the tears, the 依依不舍 is so real...
I was practically crying throughout the entire Friday...
The moment I bring it up I start tearing...
Probably no one would realise the significance this koinonia has been for me...
Sometimes I wonder if it's tears of joy or tears of sorrow...
All I can say is I want to be obedient to God...
I am excited with what is that lay ahead...
And I believe after 5th Nov, the picture will be even clearer...
As of now, I'll just stay close to God, keep my spiritual senses sharpen and pray...
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