Sunday, April 14, 2013

God's magnificence

Yesterday was my mum's 60th birthday...
We woke up early to drive to the airport at 7am to meet my sis and nephew who arrive from London early in the morning..
On the way to the airport, the sun was rising and it was such a glorious sunrise...

I have no pics to back it up as I was driving...
But just imagine with me.. the skies were pretty clear, with streaks of clouds here & there..
the sun was like a salted egg yolk so round and orange...
It was radiant, bright and define... unlike the norm for Singapore where it is so cloudy you can hardly see any sunrise or sunset...

I couldn't help but kept staring at the Sun.. it captured my attention until the HDB flats at punggol area block my view of the magnificent sun. Then I focus my eyes on the road and was momentarily blinded.

I could barely see what's ahead of me... then I realise that I was staring at the Sun for too long...
The bright shining sun had momentarily blinded me...

Is that how it feels for the OT people... where God's glory is so magnificent that they can't look at His face, if not they will not live...


"But," he said, "you cannot see my face,  for no one may see me and live."
Exodus 33:20

For that split moment, I realised that the society and myself included has taken God so lightly...
Our fear, our awe of God has dwindled...
What has happened?
Sin has seeped into our lives so deeply that we treat it as norm...
That we can compromise with certain things which the society accepts because it's so common...

Who do we regard God, our Heavenly Father as?
Where do we place Jesus in our lives?
Are we ashamed of our sins - wrongdoings, distorted mindset & self-seeking heart...

Why has God been dethrone from our lives?
Why has Jesus stop being the centre of our lives?
Why has the things of God stop being our priority?

I want to pray that His loved ones will stop exchanging our Glorious God for worthless idols (Jer 2:11)
I want to keep praying that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give us the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that we may know him better (Eph 1:17)

Deut 28 starts off by telling us the blessings for obedience and ends off with curses for disobedience..  vs 58-68 in particular tells us that "if you do not carefully follow all the words of this law, which are written in this book, and do not revere this glorious and awesome name—the Lord your God— the Lord will send fearful plagues on you and your descendants, harsh and prolonged disasters, and severe and lingering illnesses."

No, I reject the curses in the name of Jesus... we no longer live in the Old Testament times.. Jesus had come to be a ransom for us, to redeem us from these curses for disobedience... to rescue us.. to set us free... Won't you just come to Him and accept His love, His grace... 

He longs for you to meet with Him... won't you just spare Him some time out of those 24 hours that He's given you to commune with Him... to spend some little moments with Him?

Sunday, April 07, 2013

The root of it...

I can't help but question...
What exactly is the root cause of it all?
What is the root cause for my impatience - especially with pple dear to my heart (my mum esp.)...
Why do I get easily annoyed & angered by her...
It has been bothering me all these years... & I have yet found the answer to it...

Deep down am I harbouring unforgiveness?
Do I have some expectations of my mum which are unmet since young? Or vice versa?
What exactly are my deep rooted issues which are surfacing now and causing me to be intolerable, impatient, hot-tempered, unable to control my anger....

God, won't you reveal it to me?
And resolve this heart issue that I have? So that I can truly worship you with my entire being, my speech, behaviour & actions.. especially towards my family...
the ones dearest & closest to me...
They are getting hurt because of me... Lord, please forgive me...

Friday, April 05, 2013

officially engaged since 15 March 2013

It's been almost 3 weeks since 15 March 2013...

That was the night when Mark proposed to me at Punggol Park..
in the presence of Justin & Juliana (our newly married couple friend)
& Guan Shen (Mark's bf who helped Mark to scout out the place together with Justin & camped out there & sneakily pretended to be a hobo.. whom suddenly whipped out his D600 and started snapping photos away)

It's so surreal...
probably coz I didn't really expect that it will happen
& it took place just two days before Mark heads back to Perth...
so we barely had time to celebrate the engagement etc..
& he was gone.. & we're separated in two different countries...

Big Thumbs up for Mark - He finally planned a surprise successfully..
his covers were almost blown off mid-way.. but by the grace of God and the help of loving friends..
he managed to pull it off.. and surprised me...

*big applause to my fiancé!

for details of the proposal... pls stay tune for the next post...

pic taken at home after the proposal...
which was sent out via whatsapp to friends
to announce the good news... :)

Saturday, January 12, 2013

迷你台湾之旅 (03012013 - 06012013)


我很喜欢我这《第一次》短短四天的台湾之旅。差不多每件事、每一天都是 highlights of the trip。

如果硬要我选一件事来作记录,我想还是从这台湾之旅的初衷吧。

故事从2012年11月5日开始:
At 4:15:58 PM 我发了这么样的一个简讯to: "SC GFs" whatsapp group chat
"On another note: anyone wants to go tw? I want to go holiday while I'm still based in Sgp and Guang Liang have a concert on 5th Jan 2013 there. Would love to coincide my holiday trip to TW ard then. Any interested parties?"
~ 之间都是我们在讨论一些琐碎的事情。。。终于在
5/11/12 5:02:43 PM: AQL: Sure i am game.
就此决定了我们2013年的台湾之旅。
我们当然想在台湾多玩几天,可是就是没有那么多的假期可以拿了吗... :(

我们的 "SC GFs" whatsapp group chat 有五个女生。打从2000年,我们从新加坡女子中学毕业后,我们就会持续的一组人相约碰面,即使我甚少在新加坡 -因为到柏斯念书,我只有年底会回到新加坡过暑假,我们仍保持这难得的友谊。AQL 算是我在这群朋友中最close的 GF - 女性朋友。

或许先来一段历史回顾吧。。。

1999年,我在 YES 933 电台听到《想见你》这首歌时,我就开始查询无印良品。《想见你》应该也是我买的第一张专辑吧... 之后我陆陆续续的开始收集他们从出道开始发的专辑。

就那么短短一年后,
在2000年,他们宣告要单飞。。。然后开始了他们第一个也是最后一个大型演唱会,《无印良品珍重演唱会》的巡回演唱。AQL 也陪着我去见证了光良品冠以无印良品的姿态在新加坡同台演出的最后一场演唱会。~超感伤的...

2001年,光良推出首张专辑《第一次》。那年唱片公司让大家听《第一次》的母带,要我们参与填词竞赛的活动。那是我生平“第一次”试着写歌词。我借由着我和AQL的友谊写了《不要说再见》。

Verse:
回想起过去 美好的回忆就一一浮现
当初的我们 就好似陌生人一言不语
但是如今我们却成相知相拥的知己
我的生活不自觉地盘旋在你的身边
多么希望这感情 永不蜕变

Chorus:
离去的时候 不掉一滴泪 把所有感情压抑在心中
没你的日子 孤单又寂寞 我曾经在深夜里暗自哭泣
我不想就这样入睡 这样的我好累
**离去的时候 好多话想说 但是一切都尽在不言中
没你的日子 失去了方向 我曾经在人群中找寻自己
你的倩影让我感到安慰

Bridge:
我仍期待重逢 再听那熟悉的笑声
但愿时光能倒流 不要说再见

Repeat Chorus: *

离去的时候 好多话想说 但是一切都尽在不言中
没你的日子 失去了方向 我曾经在人群中找寻自己
你的日子又是否过得好吗
这首歌竟然得到前十名的奖项,真的超兴奋的。那也是我第一年人在柏斯念书,超想念新加坡的一群好朋友。常常都会习惯性的打长途电话和AQL聊天。(因为在新加坡中学时期念书时,我们每天都会在电话、线上聊天,即使我们每个周日都会在学校碰面。就好像时间很多,即使没有讲话,也会拿着电话筒一边读书、听广播,一边闲聊、聊在网路上认识的朋友 etc etc. )
那一年七月寒假,爸妈带着公公、婆婆,和叔叔到柏斯探望我和姐姐。那时我超想念新加坡的朋友,就硬拗爸妈让我和他们一起回新加坡度假。凭着成绩优越,我又一直哭哭哀求,爸妈拿我没辙,就让我回去了那么五天!没话说,飞机票又贵,可是学期已经开始了。。。
可悲的是光良却选在我离开新加坡后,在八月到新加坡宣传新专辑。:( 气死我了。
光良上 YES 933 电台接受访问那一晚,我还特地上线收听。那时澳洲的网络科技不是很好,只有56 kbps dial-up modem. 但那晚奇迹般的収讯特别好,那一个钟头的节目,完全没有档机。
突然间在节目上我听到AQL 的声音,她竟然拼命的试着拨电话进电台就为了要帮我传话给光良,并请他唱《生日快乐》预祝我生日快乐。对,很巧的是我生日是8月22日。在光良八天前。
死党就是那么来的吧。我万万没想到她们还出席光良和静茹在新加坡的校园演唱会,拍下了许许多多的照片,摆在相簿里头,再加上我们一群死党的照片和祝福的话语送给我做生日礼物。


2002 年, 光良推出了《光芒》。他来新加坡宣传时刚巧碰到我回新过暑假。YEAH! 终于可以和他再次面对面交流,参加签唱会。AQL特地帮我桥了两张校园演唱会的票陪我出席。好兴奋哦!她又趁机SABOTAGE 我了。主持人要找歌迷上台唱光良的歌。。。AQL 就硬把我的手举得高高的,当然就中选了。我选择唱《勇气》因为女生的音调比较容易唱。但是我也紧张的差点忘词。幸好有相识的无印良品歌迷坐在前排提醒我歌词。只可惜另一个参赛者是那个学校的学生,呼声比我高,所以他成了优胜者。比赛过后我才懊恼着应该选择《只能抱着你》呀,那么就能邀光良一起合唱,一箭双雕,一举两得,多么难得的机会,怎么没早点儿想到呢。。。之后就再也没机会了。

十年就那么的过去了。。。

2011 年,八月份,光良也有在LEGACY 举办演唱会。那时我回到新加坡做工了。我就起了念头想去台北旅游、看演唱会,但是朋友的时间都配合不了。。。

没想到这个梦想在2013年初竟然实现了。一个星期前的今天我在台湾过了漫长、难忘的一天。

超兴奋光良-2013我们的故事台北演唱会的开场曲是《勇气》。
这首歌是我“第一次”大庭广众之下唱给光良听的歌曲,副歌歌词也让我感触良多。

"爱真的需要勇气 来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定 我的爱就有意义
爱真的需要勇气 去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你 放在我手心里 你的真心"

毕竟我和我男友能走在一起,除了神的旨意和祝福,也算是苦尽甘来、好事多磨、需要很多的勇气,因为我比他年长三岁。况且他大学毕业后还必须服兵役两年,所以我们俩的母亲当初都很介意我们俩相爱。

我是特别安排我的台湾四天之旅在1月5日的时候。哪知光良又是特别把演唱会安排在年初他哥哥、侄儿,一家人从纽西兰到台北旅行的当儿举办,真是难得的巧合。

光良-2013我们的故事台北演唱会 曲目 (应该没错吧)

1)勇气
2)是你变了吗
3)伤心地铁
4)向左走向右走
5)回到一个人
6)我等你
7)第一次
8) 都是你
9)掌心
10)想见你
11)胡思乱想
12)台北下着雨的星期天
13)我们的故事
14)童话
15)朋友

Encore:
- 单恋
- 约定

都是我超喜爱的歌曲!坦白来讲,光良有哪些歌是我不爱听的呢?Hahaha... 好像没有吧。
就很讶异他竟然选择《勇气》开场,可能听到我的心声吧? Hahaha...
就如光良所说 《向左走向右走》是我"第一次"听他现场唱。
《回到一个人》让我感伤,却又深牵我心。
听到《胡思乱想》根本就吓了一跳!是在做梦吗?
《童话》也是另一个我特别喜爱和有故事的歌曲。从第一天我听到这首歌,我就深深爱上它。我就期盼着我人生中的白马王子能够唱这首歌给我,向我求婚之类的。另一个感人的故事发生在2006年-我在柏斯的教会有个年轻的母亲因为癌症去世了。我和她一家人不是很熟,但是她留下了丈夫和年幼的五个孩子,让我倍感哀伤,特别想帮助他们。在她的追悼会上,她的二女儿说 "我很喜欢弹这首歌。妈妈很难受时,她都会要求我弹奏这首歌安抚她 -《童话》。" 听了这句话和她弹奏的音符时,我忍不住哭了。她也有好几次哽咽、颤抖到无法弹奏。在场的很多人都落泪了。
相信每个女生的心里都期盼着《童话》成真的那么一天吧。白马王子的出现、之后过着幸福快乐、无忧无虑的日子!
《朋友》应该是特别值得记念的歌曲。学生时期,AQL 喜欢 周华健的《朋友》,我喜欢无印良品的《朋友》,而且我们最近在一起狂欢圣诞唱KTV时还点播合唱这首歌呢!

2000 年我们 "第一次" 一起看、一起听无印良品新加坡的珍重演唱会。
2013 年我们也 "第一次" 一起看、一起听光良-2013我们的故事台北演唱会。

算是特别的记念,记念我们这十五年真挚的友谊吧。

真是意犹未尽。。。好多好难得的"第一次"哦!