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1st of all a big apology to have bored u guys with my studying process.. my exam preparations.. and all that about my mundane lifestyle of mugging.. and stressing out.. and dealing with anxiety disorder.. and blah blah blah

now that I'm done.. as usual lah.. I feel so BoReD... hahahaha.. now that I don't need to study.. and there's no good serials available for me to watch non-stop.. I can't wait to go out there and enjoy and soak in this big big nature out there.. what I lack is company.. :(

Actually, it's a really sad thing.. hahaha I don't have that many friends that I can hang out with... and just do things that "we" like together.. it definitely isn't a sudden realisation.. it's just a sudden exclamation.. And so far in Perth, I really don't have many or any close female friends.. besides maybe my housemate, Eunice.. and that's coz she's so near.. but coz my mood swings recently.. my "withdrawal symptoms".. and all the assignments and exams we both have/had.. we also didn't talk much.. haiz my bad my bad..

disclaimer: my "withdrawal symptoms" refer to me isolating myself.. not wanting to interact nor communicate with anyone.. BUT THEN I'M OVER THAT CRAZY PHASE ALREADY!!

okie this really sux.. it's like 6am now.. and I'm still not asleep.. b'coz I'm trying to rip dvds.. so that I can return to my sis's friend.. before they fly off in the evening back to melb.. and the worst thing is.. I have yet to get a proper sleep and rest since I finish my exams.. gosh.. I was so pooped on sat nite.. but I had so much difficulty sleeping.. my mind was still super active.. maybe coz been thru too much emotions and anxiety within a day.. 2 exams.. and end of academic life.. and all the bits and pieces.. then every single noise woke me up.. super light sleeper even though I was so tired.. and u know u're so tired.. but can't get quality rest.. so agitating.. then I'll grumble everytime I got woken up.. hahaa.. planned to take a nap in the arvo (Sat).. but just didn't get down to it.. and now I can't sleep.. in another 2 hrs time gotta go church for service.. omigosh..

Yeah!! Record-breaking.. I don't think I've ever posted such a long post full of words! but it's so random.. I don't know what to name the title.. yet I don't wanna leave it blank/empty.. kekee.. The feelings of neither here nor there is back again.. Gosh.. I really dunno what to do next.. besides applying for PR.. coz don't wanna waste the chance available.. it's always good to have a backup plan of some sort.. just like the idea of getting a double degree.. hahaha.. but God's ways are higher than our ways.. so I really want to go where He leads.. Now I'm just standing at the crossroads of life... waiting for further directions, instructions... full of uncertainty.. everything is just a blur.. I just pray that He'll reveal it to me soon.. and prepare the way ahead for me..

I can see the many miracles and breakthroughs.. please just keep the harmony and peace there.. Let not Satan come and destroy the goodness.. in Jesus name! I proclaim You are Lord over my life, over my family, my household! Thank You Heavenly Father for showering me with Fatherly love that I'd never experience from my earthly father.. Thank You for all that You've done for me.. :)