It's 4:17am, and I so shouldn't be awake and what more online and blogging...
It's been a long.. very long while since I have been awake and online at this kind of unearthly hour as I term it.
Just finished reading Sophie Kinsella's Remember me?
Quite interesting novel I'd say... which kept me hooked on.. was supposed to read it to sleep.. but the more I read the more I wanted to keep going on.. and I ended up just finishing it not too long ago... and it got me feel like expressing myself...
I suddenly stopped and reflected abt my life in Albany...
and I'm in utter shock and disbelief.
so I've actually moved out of my so-called comfort zone for the past 9 years, Perth, and moved to the so-called 3rd largest city in WA to live, to teach, to answer God's calling for my life...
Is this it?
I don't think so...
I am sure God has called me here and have even greater things in store for me.... and He will reveal it in His timing.. :)
But it just suddenly dawned on me the fact that I've been living on my own for the past 3 months.. but technically speaking it's 1 mth.. coz mum had been in and out of Albany in the first 2 months I was here.
Unimaginable.
I didn't think I could live on my own. Renting in Albany. Working/Teaching in a School, a Christian College. Do grocery shopping on my own. Go for walks on my own. Cook for myself. Do budgeting and pay off debts
- LIVE LIFE INDEPENDENTLY!
It's HUGE.
I know I'm supposed to have my steep independent-living learning curve when I first moved to Perth when I was '16 going on 17'. but sister was there to 'baby-sit' me. when she moved to Melbourne and left me alone in Perth? I was already accustomed to it all and had friends surrounding me...
I know it was/is a huge blessing from God and I'm thankful to my parents as well that I've come this far... but I still can't believe that I HAVE BECOME A TEACHER.
Something that seems so unthinkable, unimaginable 5 years ago.. in 2005. A word from God; a thought, an idea that seem to have dropped from nowhere; words of confirmation through others... has now been fulfilled. How amazing. How awesome You are...
The path wasn't easy, the path wasn't straight. The path wasn't smooth-going, it was rough. Very rough at times. But Praise God! I have come through the refining fire and am now here. Still fulfilling the DESTINY & PURPOSE HE HAS FOR ME!
And at a crucial history-making moment as well in the midst of Curriculum changes in Australia. Midst of growth in CEM and ACC - Southlands.
I am excited with what lies ahead of me. I am in awe of what God has put me through, what he is putting me through, and what I am about to go through.
But probably it's the lack of reflection at this kind of timing for a Long Long Time...
I'm just in shock & find it hard to express myself...
I have a First-Aid Training Course that I am attending in less than 4 hrs time and till about 12 hrs later.. I so shouldn't be up till now.. good thing I accidentally fell asleep from about 7+ till 10+.. so I had 3 hrs nap earlier.. hopefully that will provide me with enough energy and rest to last tomorrow... and there's an assessment at the end of tomorrow! for the First-Aid Course.. hmmmph.....
What is happening to my life? (I think it's more good than bad at the moment.. although stereotypically, it seems pple only ask this question when life is bad)
What else does God want me to do to influence the lives of people around me? (or to begin with, am I already doing it? I think so... I hope it is.. I hope I am having a positive and Godly influence on people's lives...)
I love you Dear Heavenly Father...
I love you Mummy and Papa.
I love you Jie...
I love you My Dear...
I love you my friends...
(all of you whom has crossed my path somewhere, somehow, sometime.)
I love you Gong gong and Po po.
(hmmz, I'm not too sure where I'm going.. public declaration of my love for pple that won't even be reading this?)
I guess life is short. or rather life in this temporal world is short. We really need to make full use of it.. and the best way is to surrender it into God's hands and allow Him to accomplish His plans and purposes for us, through us...
Life is that SIMPLE.
because this life is not our own.
~ Lord Jesus take control ~
and I finished blogging and editing at 4:57am..
Good night world!
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