so I decided to pick up the book again...

no particular reason...
but when I 1st started reading this book
maybe earlier on this yr
it was "not captivating at all"
I'm dead serious..
so after the 1st 2 or 3 pages..
I dropped the book..
And read other stuff

But I've seen tons of pple
quoting from this book...
And really loving this book
And wondering why it doesn't
touch me the same way?


I guess it just wasn't the book for
the season of my life then...
not the right timing :P

well last nite..
I felt God's prompting to come back to it...
But I only physically flipped the pages this evening

Chapter One - The Heart of a Woman

1. long to be romanced


2. long to be an irreplaceable part of a shared adventure


3. long to possess a beauty to unveil

I can totally relate to that now
somehow just a couple of months ago
when I 1st bought the book...
and picked it up to read for the 1st time
I couldn't... or perhaps
this discovery of the mystery of a woman's soul
wasn't that appealing

it's funny how I just can't comprehend something that Eunice once commented to me about... that becoz of my capability.. well Aunty Cindy and Ps Melvin likes to call it multi-gifted/talented... and all the little life/survival skills that I have... it kindaf "put guys down"... & it could be one of the reason that "scares guys off"... resulting in my current singlehood...

I can safely say I'm not really bothered by this current singlehood-ness..
not because I don't like the opp. sex...
not because I've decided not to get married...
not because I'm not anxious to meet my life partner...
It's just because I fully trust that God will provide...
And in due time... the desires of my heart will be fulfilled

And this period of singlehood..
God is using it to draw me closer unto Himself
Find total dependance in Him
Embrace Him and Love Him passionately
Preparing me physically, emotionally, spiritually
for what's up ahead...
It's the best season in my life
Where I can totally dedicate myself to doing His work
Letting God use me fully...
Discovering the will and purpose He has for me...

sweet

And I just love the intimacy of our relationship
I just can't help falling deeper and deeper in love
with Him each day...

Til God thinks I'm ready and it's about time...
I will just wait upon Him and worship Him :)